I don’t understand. I seriously think she is bipolar among other things.
She has threatened to kill me so many times now, it’s ridiculous.
She yells EVERY single day (save the days like yesterday where she yelled at me about something I cannot even remember and the after she yelled at me she hugged me and said she loved me, says that everyone says that they want to kill their daughter when they get upset, that when I get a daughter “like me” I will understand…) that I 1) take shower 1 in 4 days (which is a blatant lie) 2) don’t comb my hair (Another lie. Because she later even contradicted herself that I don’t shower or wash my face all I DO is comb my hair and go to school) or 3) brush my teeth.
I refute all of them. She simply says “I know. I see.” How does she know? I wake up at 3 am. Sometimes 2:30 am. I sleep at 12 pm. Would you care to know what time she wakes up at? 6:00 am. A whole 3 hours later.
For those who do care, yes I wake up and brush my teeth, wash my face and comb my hair the whole shabang. In fact I don’t have much acne, because I wash my face and I shower, because I am a human being.
She says I do not read either. This is just hysterical.
Obviously I read. What other reason on earth could I possibly have to wake up at 3? Clearly she thinks I am either a) a mutant b) a person who enjoys surviving on only 3 hours of sleep (ironically she acknowledges my lack of sleep) or c) Mr. Rogers.
Because the fact that I wake up early TO read more does not even cross her mind.
I tell her that I enjoy school. (Escape from her, nice learning environment). She says (and this even more hysterical) “WHO EVEN KNOWS IF YOU GO TO SCHOOL? I DON’T KNOW. YOU COULD BE HIDING SOMEWHERE!” First of all, she leaves after I do. So she should know. Secondly she CAN go to my school - as she has threatened at least 100 times by now, no hyperbole - and they can confirm this.
I just don’t understand why a mother would so desperately want to make her daughter out to be evil.
Oh and I didn’t even tell you the best part. The part that started this. Amidst her typical cursing-at-me-in-a-foreign-language-so-the-tennants-can’t-understand she says “I will kill you. Someday I will kill you. And I don’t care if I go to jail. It’ll be worth it. I’ll kill you.” “I’ll kill you” was said 3 times in effect. And if anything was learned from Eng 10H/AP Lang 3 times is the lucky number folks!
And I’m sure she’s right. I assure you (91%) that she will kill me. That she will, if not directly, indirectly be responsible for the destruction of me. She’s already got a head start on the emotional/physical (did I mention she not only kicked me but came at me with a plate and “someone/I should hit your head with this?”) approach.
The other 9% is hoping I can get through this. That I can survive this just until I get to college, in a land far far away.